Rough morning...

So I'm sitting at work, my boss isn't back from lunch, and I have done everything I've been assigned that I can do... so I figured I'd write.

So this morning was a rough morning. I basically had to confront my brother on some things and although we walked away better, it was still really hard to do and to hear some of the things he said. Now I know he did it in love, and I know they weren't intended to hurt me, but some of the things he was "accusing" me of was pre-Africa and I'm working on a lot of it. So it hurt, because it showed how much time he hasn't spent with me to give me a fighting chance. I don't know, maybe I'm reading to much into it, and I am taking everything I can from it... but it doesn't change the fact that everytime I think about it, I start crying. Now, for anyone who knows me, knows that I don't cry. I mean, I cry, but in the privacy of my own room so that no one is aware of it. I don't like crying in front of people, especially in a public place. So it's been hard today that at Starbucks and then again sitting at my desk at work, I have cried. Last night was easier because, of course, I was in my own room. So anyway, please pray for me and the situation. Pray that our talk today brought healing and an even playing ground that maybe he can get to know me post-Africa. Pray my emotions stay stable and that I trust God to use this to grow me.