We are waiting on Your touch
Open up the heavens shower down Your presence
We respond to Your great love
We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary
We won’t be satisfied at all
Open up the sky fall down like rain
We don’t want blessings we want You
Open up the sky fall down like fire
We don’t want anything but You
Our beloved Jesus we just want to see You
In the glory of Your light
Earthly things don’t matter they just fade and shatter
When we’re touched by love divine
Here we go let’s go to the throne
The place that we belong
Right into His arms
-Deluge "Open Up The Sky" (Bethany Presents Deluge (Live))
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18 days... 18 days... 18 days... 18 days... 18 days...
I can not believe I'm 18 days away from leaving for Zimbabwe. The days are dragging on, but then put in context, I am thrilled beyond belief. I am so ready to be there. I think I was ready to be there a month ago.
This last month, however, has been a hard one. I have been attacked so bad by the enemy. Not with physical sickness/pain, not with financial burdens, not even with relational struggles. No, it's worse, he has hit me with laziness and complacency. If you know me, you know I fear complacency. I do not want to ever be in a place that I think "I'm ok, I can stay right here and be fine" and yet, I have found myself feeling that way. Spending time with the Lord has become my Christian duty, not my joy, strength, peace, encouragement, challenge, excitement. I have found I "don't need" to talk to God about my day "because things are going alright." This is the place I do not want to be in, I do not want to stay in, and I do not want to become "okay" with.
Last night, however, I went to the prayer service at church. I have missed the last few weeks because now that my commitment with students is done, I have found that I have a CHOICE on whether or not I want to go to church. Now, that choice has not been the best because I have chosen not to go. Last night though, Carol (my boss/mentor/friend) asked me to read scripture for the evening. I was so glad she asked me, because I wouldn't have gone otherwise, but it was so refreshing. The Holy Spirit was so present you to could eat it! You could not even walk outside of the building without feeling the Spirit of God fall on that church. There was sweetness, joy, relief, freedom, and rest in the presence of God last night. It was the very thing my soul desired, more desperately than I realized.
Now, I'm not saying I'm "cured" from this place of attack, but I feel as though I have been given the strength to fight back now! I am ready and willing to take on the battle once again and protect and battle for what is mine.
The attack has been strong for each of my team members and the pastors over in Zimbabwe. Please pray against all the spiritual warfare going on! I need your help to battle this dark realm. Thank you for your prayers! I covet each of them! May God pour out blessings on each one of you!!
Ways to pray for me:
- Spiritual attack - for strength to continue in the fight and at no point let my guard down
- Details - for wisdom as the "last minute" details are coming together and discernment on what is needed and what is not
- Health - Prayer that my health will stay strong, my immune system will strengthen, and I will be free from sickness before, during and after my trip
- Unity - Pray for continued unity within my team. That as the trip is approaching, that the bonds between us with strengthen
- Peace - For members of my team, or family members of team members, to have peace that surpasses understanding, knowing that God is sovereign and in control of every aspect of our trip
- Offense - the pastors in Zimbabwe have developed a spirit of offense towards Colin and Lovejoy and we currently have one (1) pastor, Godknows, who is attending. Pray the enemy will not win in this but that each pastor will come to our prayer summit, that is exactly 3 weeks from today!
- Financial - that we can raise the money for each pastor to go to the Seed Sowers Prayer Summit for free
- Unity - pray for unity within the body of Christ for the churches in Zimbabwe
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