New resolve

Some may not like this, others may be shocked, others may not care; either way, I’m writing it. I will be blunt, may use profanity, but no less do I passionately believe what I am writing. It’s my journey to being vulnerable, right? I’m writing from what flows in my thoughts.

So, I know that I have the gift of intercession. I know that God has given me an Anna anointing. I know that I am created/designed to usher in the presence of God. Due to this, I find it no coincidence that 2 ½ weeks ago I was let go from my job (which I loved) and over the last few days the world has gone to hell. I don’t find it a coincidence because God doesn’t doing “coincidence”. I have always said, “Coincidence is God’s way of remaining anonymous.”

I was on a popular social media sight when I saw a picture my friend posted below.

 "Get ready people!"

For some reason, this picture made so many things click for me. I have been having a hell of a pity party for myself and adequately gone in to “fix it” mode. I have looked feverously for a job (which is a good thing) and said with my mouth that God is in control and He has a purpose bigger than me, but it wasn’t until tonight that I realized my faith has been lip service. God is calling me to deeper levels with him. He has been doing this for a few months now (so many can attest to this). He is revealing new aspects of himself, drawing me into deeper intimacy with him, and firing me up to charge hell with a water pistol and usher in the return of Christ. However, I didn’t correlate my losing my job to this purpose… until I saw the picture. 

I have spoken quite a bit with my good friend Bethany, who has the same resolve I do and the same fire in her. She has been my cheerleader and advocate in so many ways. One of those ways is connecting me with the people who can teach me, mold me, shape me, encourage me and keep me passionate about my cause in life. It’s been there, but not like recently. To this, I am extremely grateful to her. I know that this is bigger than me and I need a community around me with similar passion. So, I’m going to a service at her church tomorrow night. Her church is one that can teach me more about the second coming and the end times movement. (Because in case you didn’t know, Jesus is coming back!!!) I feel like digging deeply into this study is where God is leading me in this season. I feel like this is my next move and that it took me stopping to reassess everything to get resolved in my next step. 

Ok, so that may have been a passionate rabbit trail my fingers and brain embarked on just then, but it is relevant no less. So, I’m writing to update but also to remember. To remember that this is the season I am called into. That life not going “as planned” in my pages is exactly as HE planned in his. That my life is not on track to my end goal, but it is moving into deeper intimacy with the father and a deeper resolve to see His kingdom come and His will be done. I have a new purpose for the gospel and intercession. This is to remember to get out of my own little world and see the bigger schemes that God is cooking and charge the forces of evil in the heavenly realm through prayer and intercession. 

All that to say, I have no idea why I’m writing but to get it in print that God is moving, speaking and using me in some crazy way.