God is faithful

You know, growing up is hard sometimes. The stresses seem to get bigger and the solutions seem smaller. However, God is always faithful!

You start thinking about the "drama" or "stress" from high school, jr. high or even elementary school and wish so badly you could go back to when your biggest issue was the clothes you wear or the friend you want to invite to your birthday party when you can only pick one. As I think about it though, that means in another 25 years I'll look back at this moment that seem so overwhelming and wish my biggest issue was being hurt by a boy or moving out.

Now granted, there are other things in this season that God is using to teach me, but those are the ones I won't go into on here. What I can say though, is I'm finding that the only solution, the one answer really is that God is always faithful.

I was reminded by a woman on Sunday, that God uses our trials and testing by fire to deepen our love for him. James clearly says in chapter 1 (vv. 2-4) to "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

So in this season, I'm learning again what it means to fall madly in love with the Lord. I start getting back into a place of intimacy with the Lord and wonder once again how I ever stopped. It's sick the way I fall prey to the schemes of the enemy, the lust of the world and the lure of my own flesh. How I want to long for the Lord more than I long for my husband!

God, teach me what it means to delight in You. Show me what that looks like! Create in me a deeper longing for You. Show me how to seek first your kingdom and righteousness without expecting "these things" to be added to me. Forgive me for the way I lose sight. Forgive me for giving into temptation to find satisfaction in anything but You.

I look forward to being on the other side of this season and seeing how the Lord grew me. It sucks in the moment, yet I choose JOY. I choose to praise You! I choose to seek the Lord. I choose to be thankful for the little things.

God is always faithful!!