The Lord is my strength and my shield

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Proverbs 18:24 (NIV)

So I have realized I'm more insecure than I thought. Why is it, that even at 22, you still get that feeling (like you did as a kid) that all your friends will like this "new" friend better?? It's stupid! I have Jesus! Sounds cliche' but I'm serious. I have realized I am truly content in life, even if the only person who 'likes' me is Him. I don't need to have friends who tell me "I'm cool" because if I'm not living a life that glorifies the Lord, then all I do on this earth is pointless. I have realized that even in my pit of dispare and those times when I feel like the whole world is against me, that I can have joy, strength, and peace in Jesus Christ alone.

I am in the midst of a situation right now, that is not what I want. I am ready for another phase, another step, a new adventure; however I remain in my whirlpool for the encouragement and stability of another person. I am having to set my desires aside and realize God has placed me in this place, at this time, for this purpose. Now, don't think that I'm anything "special" or "great" for this, because I'm not, I went into this kicking and screaming, because again, it's not what I wanted. I prayed against this idea, but God proved that it's not about me, once again. And to top that off, the devil is trying to tell me that I will be left in the dust of my friends because a new person has come on the scene, which is such a lie. I am having to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ and know without a doubt that the devil is a liar.

On a more, such is life moment, my birthday was amazing!! I had my family and friends meet me at Lupe and we packed out a small room in the back and then people came to my house after. It was a lot of fun, and one of the most laid back yet thrilling birthdays ever. I was reminded in that moment, and I remind myself in this moment, that I am extremely blessed. God has placed incredible people in my path who love God and love and support me. I am very excited about what 22 will bring in my life, I know I loved being 21 so much. God is on the verge of doing something huge and I'm sitting back waiting to get swept away by it all.

That is all for now! I love you!!